Siren Shell

I didn’t have supper with my boyfriend’s mother. In this situation I found that he does not have supper with her either and she gets upset. Emotionally, I cannot have supper with her every day. I feel bad. If she wants him to spend time with her she has to make him food. I tried to help her with this daily but it ended up being too much. It’s an entire daily ritual. I got upset because I have no wedding ring, he is not my husband and yet I sacrificed 20 hours a week to make her happy. I stopped, and she suffers, not him.

I want a real family. I do like her, but if we break up this time would just evaporate.

Everyone wants my time now. I have to be rude to protect it. I didn’t take care of myself enough and erupted on my boyfriend. My father was like this. He wouldn’t take time for himself and he would be abusive to everyone around him. I look up to him a lot but I don’t want these habits.

Anyways I’ve started to stand up for myself. It’s difficult and I am not sure our relationship will survive this because I’ve gone with the flow for so long but we will see.